Momspirational Life

Like typical “me” fashion, it’s been a while since I have been behind the screen…well, at least for what I was called to do. Needless to say, I have had many come to Jesus moments that opened my spiritual eyes within to seeing what God desired for me, and some of those moments were humbling, while some created a wake-up call that I have had to learn to process.

My seasons seemed to change so often while sometimes it felt like it became repetitive in spiritual battles. In the midst of all of these “seasons,” God showed me what was really pulling at my heart. Trust. That simple five-letter word carries huge weight within it. Trust can become idolized, which was my case as God showed my heart. To be honest, this is something I did not think of as an “idol,” yet it has so much truth behind it for us Christians when putting our trust in the Lord.

How did I allow trust to become an idol in my life, when I was careful to always put God first? When was the last time your trust with God was broken? Now, repeating the same question, “When was the last time ______ broke your trust?”

What does it mean when trust becomes idolized, especially when we are careful to not put other gods before God? In my case, I wear my heart on my sleeve, and that is one of my “flaws.” I care and put my heart to being what I believe God would want me to be for others. I invest myself into so much, leaving myself vulnerable to moments that force me to take a step back. In my heart, I make sure to be discerning of whether trust is godly trust or worldly trust. Yet, it became so easy for myself (and I know for many others) to lose light of what or who we are putting our trust in. “Trust your gut” is a statement I do not necessarily agree with because what else do we experience within our digestive system…..anxiety. When we are anxious, we are prone to fear-led decisions.

Trust becomes so freely given, but when it is not spirit-led, it become easily broken. As Christians, we unknowingly give our trust away without the guidance of the Holy Spirit. This is especially true when we are in a spiritual drought–when our spiritual tank is low or empty. But, what if trust isn’t necessarily the “idol,” but it is the attachment to that five-letter word that can be something beautiful? It is human nature for individuals to trust their jobs, their friendships, their family, their finances, or their pastors or Christian mentors. A job may break your trust, but God is there. A friend may break your trust, but God is there. Family may break your trust, but God is there. Finances might fail you, but God is there. A church might hurt you, but God is there. But God. He knew exactly when a trust would become broken, yet He will always use it for shaping a person’s testimony.

In the midst of trust, however, it is rooted in where we are in our walk with the Lord. The more we focus on Jesus, the better our spirit-led trust becomes strengthened as we place it in the Lord, and not in individuals or things. To be transparent, my quality time has not been consistent. My spiritual tank has been on “a quarter tank,” if you can say that. I read a Bible verse in my Bible app for the daily verses, or read a short devotional every other day. But, I am tired. I have not “felt like” doing what God called me to do because I felt worn down and spiritually isolated. Christians need other Christians…not just for the fun outings, but the genuine, godly fellowship. Through fellowship develops the ability to discern the spirit-led trust God gives us.

Is it a bad thing to trust in individuals that we know follow the Lord? No, not necessarily, but remember people are vulnerable to Satan’s attacks, which leads to the existing trust to potentially becoming broken. God uses people….but so does the enemy. That is why it is so important we continue turning our hearts to Jesus in consistent fellowship. Otherwise, we become conflicted in discerning spoken words or revealed actions.

So, let me ask you (and myself) this. Who or what is before you–God or man? Better yet, who is the light of the path before you? Whatever we put our trust in, we must be able to see the light before us as we journey with the Lord. When we read the Bible and keep our eyes focused on Jesus, our pathway is illuminated with the merciful light of God’s promises to us. In John 8:12, Jesus said, “I am the light of the world. If you follow me, you won’t have to walk in darkness, because you will have the light that leads to life.” (NLT).

So, let me ask you this.

Is the trust you are following in your heart allowing you to seek Jesus?